Tales of a Childbirthing Class

So yesterday, Justin and I attended our very 1st childbirthing class. I had heard tales of terror...mostly about the videos they show. Maybe I was just plain tired or loopy from being tired, but I couldn't stop wanting to chuckle throughout the entire thing last night! Nothing was particularly funny or entertaining, but I just wanted to laugh at some of the things the lady said. The only thing I really found of interest to us was the prelabor signs...I have a lot of them! As our instructor was reading us the signs and symptoms of prelabor, I was completing the checklist...marking off each sign as she went along. I kept thinking, "HOLY CRAP! This is making me feel like I could go into labor at any moment!" The last symptom she mentioned was nausea/vomiting...to this, I responded, "Oh c'mon! I just stopped getting sick and now you're telling me I'm gonna start getting sick AGAIN! What is up with that!?!?!?" Of course, this morning...true to form...I got sick :0( I just can't win! Regardless, it "sounds" like Jackson could be coming sooner than expected.

With that said, my mind has gone into a panic. I'm so worried about getting things completed before he gets here. I just feel like I haven't left myself with enough time! I have made of list of things to do before he gets here and just as soon as I cross something off, I add another thing to the list. That is so frustrating! I just want to feel ready and I want to make sure my aide is as prepared as I can get her, so I don't have to worry about anything, but Jackson. I'm also trying to make things as easy on her as possible b/c it looks like she is going to be the lone library ranger! The sub we had in mind picked another position, so there goes our help. I'm thinking about asking some parents to volunteer one day a week to help check in and check out books while I'm gone. However, finding a parent to volunteer is like trying to find a needle in a haystack! No matter what I do, I probably will never be prepared enough and I know that Teresa will be fine no matter how much I leave her or don't. Anyway, I'll figure it out. It just seems like everything is so real now....

Today, we're at 35 weeks. 5-ish more weeks to go until our due date and we can't wait! We have just a few more minor details to do to the house before baby comes: wash all his linens and clothes, clean house, make sure we pack an overnight bag, and make sure that we have most everything set up and/or put away in the "right" place. The other day I had a thought...I kept thinking about how much I wish my mom was here to make sure that I'm doing the right things and that we have all the right thing before the baby comes. I wanted to cry b/c I miss my mom and dad so much, but I kept my emotions in check and decided she can still help with those things when the little guy gets here. I can't wait until Jackson is here to squish and smile at and for him to stick his tongue out at me and a whole lot more. The list of anticipations would be vast! However much time it takes for him to get here, I'll be glad to know that he's a healthy, happy baby boy :0)